The winds of change

2023 – what a year, I have been through and seen a lot. This year was quite something else.

My dear olde dad passed away, granted he had been ill for a long time, and it’s a relief to know he is free, but it’s not something you learn to live with overnight. My Kindergarten and first German Friend passed away suddenly, he wasn’t even 50, I also said goodbye to Aunty Jaya. My brother had a double whammy losing his girlfriend and my dad within weeks of each other. I don’t know how you move through that kind of grief.

Oma who is sailing towards her 92^nd Birthday moved across Germany to a care home by the sea. Sad day when the place that was my second home for 42 years, suddenly moves on to new owners. It’s such a magical place for children, I can only hope that a young family finds it’s home there.

My young man is studying for a degree and I couldn’t be prouder. We’ve been on a journey together since he was a tiny little bub.

Friends have come and gone, but I’ve seen the best stay and keep vibing with me on the path of life. I let go of the unhappiness I pushed along with me that came from running a group that I didn’t feel connected to. My PMDD Support Group is 400 souls shy of 40.000 people living with or supporting a loved one with Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder, a condition that really impacts the quality of life for 14 days every month, sadly this year we lost the beautiful Isabel, who was a massive part of moderating the group, to PMDD. Sadly, it can lead to suicide. Who knows how many people have left their lives over the last year. I can only hope that our support groups offers a place to vent and share, leading to staying alive.

Meh, my PMDD was joined by Perimenopause. Ugh, that evil. I take it one moment at a time and contact my GP and speak to my friends if it gets too much to handle.

Sadly, having PMDD means that my brain cannot process the fluctuation of my hormone levels which lead to all kinds of aches, pains and mental states of distress and despair.

I am still here though, telling the story. Yes, 2024 I will write and share more about niche aspects of life.

I’ve really found some amazing people, I won’t name names. It wouldn’t be fair and I didn’t ask permission.

I can say I support my holistic pals with their Indigo Moon store once a week, sharing my knowledge.

Christmas was quite an experience, looking at the tree and the gifts under it, after some huge shifts in friendships, I didn’t expect to get many Christmas cards, let alone gifts. I sat in wonder, and you know, it’s not the presents. It’s the love and appreciation from one soul to another, people showing each other we mean something to one another.

I opened a small facebook group called The Spirituality Café with some lovely people in it.

If you lived a year that’s shaken a lot of your foundations, don’t look for what you have lost or whom you have left behind. Embrace the ones who stayed and showed you that you mean a lot to them.

The ones that went to heaven, hold them close and dear to your heart, but remember to honour the loss of them, embrace the life you have yet to live.

Happy New Year 2024 my friends. I look forward to sharing and caring with you.

Much Love, Fiona xx